Identity crisis

Just did crazy shit with yock!!!!! K I'm not that excited right now anymore cuz it's sad to say but I'm damn affected by what people think, especially ppl important to me. Yeah I shaved like the bottom part of my hair with some pattern on it. But when I let it down u can't see a thing. I was seriously damn hyped abt it cuz its one of the craziest thing I did yet. But i'm really crazy cuz I'm crying right now. Just hope my mum won't say something unpleasant as well. I feel like I wanna talk to someone but argh why the hell am I so affected so easily. Cuz mayb you think it's like 'what the hell' too. Trying to console myself now, how pathetic.